Getting to know myself, part… blah blah blah…

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I was about to look for an inspiration for my project, when I found an interesting quote about the last born children. It is said that the last born children are class clowns, “what? me worry”-kind of people, performers, or to live the life of parties. Moreover, it is also stated that the last born children are the persistent, yet, extrovert energetic risk takers, it may be also led the last born children for having character such as get bored easily, mean, and aggressive.

I was like, oh yeah this is shitty rite! By some means, I started to reflect on my daily attitude and started to analyse how this thing ensued.

A class clown, extrovert.. What? Me worry?

I never realise that I am a class clown, but when I looked back, I might say that I actually am, a truly class clown. I remember two days ago, I did something silly! It was when I had a new haircut style.  I posted couples of pictures imposing on celeb’s hairstyle. Don’t ask how dumb and silly I was, It was horrible and I didn’t mind at all. As long as I attracted others and got their attention, I didn’t care what others thought about me. Attraction, actually, is the most magnetic term for the last born children. They love to be noticed! Pay them more attention and they will be the most amusing people on earth.

Super creative little monster.

My talent is actually to imitate everything, as this is the natural last born children’s gift. It may be because the last born children are always copycating what their older siblings do. Even, they’re challenged to do it better than others. It may lead the last born children grow as creative little creatures. When I was a kid, my brother and I always competed each other. Every single day, I had to think a better way to do things better than him. Not a surprise that I mostly won the competition. One thing I never won from my brother was the genuineness, for I never discovered an  idea or object to be competed for.

The last born children will never find a genuine idea, instead, the will develop other people’s idea and make it into a fantastic result. The last born children never think to be a something or someone by themselves, but once they are interested and stimulated, they will become everything they desire. Throw them a word then they will make a book. Throw them a kite, then they will make a plane. A natural born creative developer, is their title.

Moody, easily get bored, and an aggressive temperamental angel.

Last born children are known as persistent people, but once they accomplish a mission, they will not do the same mission again. Once is enough. Unfortunately, the most fear of the last born children is the rejection. His mood level will drop into the lowest level when they are rejected. The awful feeling of rejection may turn them into the aggressive kind of person. Wow, it’s like banging my palm to my face. Let me recall and list down my sins.

Relationship.I rarely have a long lasting relationship, this is mostly because I easily get bored. If you find me have a long one (or you want it to be so), it means that I find a partner that is smart, paying full attention to me, able to compete, adventurous, playful and genuine. 🙂

I can be so mean as well, when my effort to get attention is failed. It’s like switching love to hate with a single click… scary!

Traveling. I never visit the same place twice, unless I have something to do and a strong reason to do it again. My travel mates always listen to my advice to set up the destination for vacation. Well, it is the last born children’s advantage to have a natural power to manipulate people. I always redirect them to visit different places when they come to an option to visit a place that I’ve visited.

Hobby. I can’t do a monotonous activity for a long time. I practiced many kind of different things to fulfil my desire of doing something new; drawing, photography, playing music instruments, capoeira, running, and what’s next?

Well, a good lesson for today. May this help me (and others) to understand myself better and to develope myself to be the better one.

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Commitment Is The New Glossary of Word “LOVE”

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When I was in a college, I was likely to build relationship with anyone I physically interested in. I didn’t have specific criteria or term to base the relationship, nevertheless none of my relationship last more than 3 months.

I didn’t say it was bad, I took it as a part of the process to cary on the maturity. As I gradually grow from what I was to what I am, the requirement to choose a partner thrives to complex stances as well. Physical appearance is still taking the first place, still, to be deliberated with the brain, attitude, and way of thinking towards issues, and of course, the maturity.

I find some people that match with those criteria, once in a blue moon.. but none of them lead me to a suitable relationship. It ends with LDR, mostly…. and that’s fnck.

I just wrote in my socmed status just now, that commitment is the new glossary of word “love”. You have guts if you once, decide to enter the hell called LDR. You need to work hard on it. Not only the less physical contact that drives you crazy, but also the temptation (of the chance to cheat) that come and go… which whatsoever brings you to a consideration to carry on the Long Distance RelationSHIT or to end it.

I miss you….

30 Hari Bersyukur

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Pertama-tama ijinkan saya memberi credit atas ketelatenan saya scroll down akun path saya demi merecap 3 hal yang saya syukuri tiap hari selama 30 hari yang lalu. Kedua, ijinkan saya misuh-misuh karena scrolling down path ini makan waktu lama…. dan kengangguren, kenapa nggak dicopy di jurnal Jo? Ah, ya sudahlah… saya memang bodoh.

Oke, latar belakangnya adalah postingan Hana di pathnya yang mengajak menuliskan 3 hal yang terjadi dan patut disyukuri selama 30 hari. Dia juga menyebutkan teori dan tokoh yang memulai ide ini, saya lupa….. dan ternyata memang benar, siapa dan kenapanya tidak perlu diingat karena memang tidak penting. Saya menangkap hal yang lebih penting dari project ini.

Semakin kesini kegiatan ini menjadi habit dan begitu saya recap, sebenarnya banyak sekali hal-hal kecil tidak begitu signifikan terjadi setiap hari.. dan hal-hal kecil itu indah, membuat saya sadar bahwa setiap hari ada saja yang bisa disyukuri. Apakah otomatis membuat saya lebih baik? Tentu saja… Saya merasa lebih bisa menerima apa yang saya terima tanpa menuntut yang terlalu banyak. Dan jika sesuatu yang tidak mengenakkan terjadi, saya lebih bisa bilang.. “ya sudahlah toh cuman ini doang”… Tanpa sadar saya menuai buah dari kebiasaan saya bersyukur.

This is a good thing to start, just try to be honest. Nothing is too late to start. Write down 3 things that make you grateful for, dan feel the positive atmosphere coming through without you realise it. I tend to continue this habit and let’s see what’s coming next.

3/3/15

  1. Memulai proyek menulis dengan bebeb, menarasikan sebuah lagu. Satu bulan satu lagu.
  2. Internet gak lelet.
  3. Cuci rambuut, saat kering ternyata masih tetep keriting 🙂

4/3/15

  1. 30 menit ngobrol sama bebeb meskipun sinyal megap-megap.
  2. Menyelesaikan cicilan menulis, 1 bab selesai.
  3. Hujan!

5/3/15

  1. Tidur siang saat weekday, yg jarang banget bisa setelah kelas Erning gak ngajar todler lagi (biasanya ge tidur di kelasnya)
  2. Ibadah doa Kamis malam
  3. Hujan

6/3/15

  1. Bebeb’s safe flight.
  2. Ganti nama jadi Ben Barnes.
  3. Hujan.

7/3/15

  1. Lari setelah sembuh dari sakit, cuman 6 km tapi hampir sejam di jalan.
  2. Bikin tulisan lucu-lucuan tentang 4 perempuan idola di blog pribadi.
  3. Ingat berdoa biar pun sudah siang bolong.

8/3/15

  1. Sunday service and punya kenalan baru.
  2. Covering All of Me, berikutnya Almost id Never Enoughnya Ariana Grande.
  3. Bangun sangat siang dan mandi cuman sekali.

9/3/15

  1. Menemukan partiture Almost is Never Enough.
  2. Nonton film bagus : American Sniper.
  3. MAkan telur asin 2 biji

10/3/15

  1. Ketemu mahluk TUhan paling seksi, Nero the Golden Retriever dan Onyx si Husky.
  2. Dapat ransum makan siang.
  3. Dapat alamat redaksi salah satu media nasional.

11/3/15

  1. Dapat nomernya Olin.
  2. Ketemu lagi sama teman-teman lari dan ketawa ketiwi lagi.
  3. Makan gratis lagi.

12/3/15

  1. Thursday service.
  2. Hang out @Hommee with great fellas.
  3. Dark choco.

13/3/15

  1. Prank war sama Yan. Paging vs Meeting.
  2. Nice dinner with gank Jompo.
  3. Cold beer with great fellas.

14/3/15

  1. Woke up very very late.
  2. Menemukan partiture lagu-lagu favorit di internet.
  3. 3 jam di tempat karaoke, nyanyi.

15/3/15

  1. Mecel Mas Nanang.
  2. Wandering around Surabaya via House of Sampoerna shuttle bus.
  3. Hujan!

16/3/15

  1. Whatsapan sama bebeb di sela-sela kesibukan.
  2. Dkirimi 2 tulisan yang rada kinky sama bebeb.
  3. Pesta!

17/3/15

  1. Lots of cake in the office.
  2. Dapat masukan dari bebeb tentang tulisan “Take Me to Church”.
  3. Hujan!

18/3/15

  1. Kirim SPT online berhasil.
  2. Obelix nggak di kantor seharian.
  3. Kerpiki tempe masih ada.

19/3/15

  1. Selesaiin tulisan “Almost is Never Enough”.
  2. Makan siang pake sayur lodeh dan ikan asin… Heaven!
  3. Thursday service.

20/3/15

  1. Dapat jawaban dari Pastor Billy jadwal khotbahnya di Surabaya.
  2. Ketemuan sama Nella, teman mbolang dari Medan.
  3. Jam session dengan teman2 band.

21/3/15

  1. Cold beer with great fellas.
  2. Knowing that bebeb was back from the district safely.
  3. Got the partiture od Sam Smith’s.

22/3/15

  1. Awesome SUnday service with pastor BIlly Lantang.
  2. Me time for 6 hours, doing whatever I like.
  3. Green tea frapucino.

23/3/15

  1. Woke up very late.
  2. Nice breakfast and lunch.
  3. Masih merasa manusia, karena masih kangen sama bebeb.

24/3/15

  1. Todays’ 3rd cup of coffee.
  2. First time prayer for bebeb.
  3. Cute texting we sent each other, ternyata dia sudah mandi.

25/3/15

  1. Jam session sama teman ngeband, nggarap Don’t Speak dan Set Fire to Rain.
  2. Akhirnya tau kenapa Telkomsel kacrut walaupun dengan cara yg tidak Niamey.
  3. Gratisan tiket nonton konser Adie MS.

26/3/15

  1. An old friend offering herself to be an editor.
  2. Finding that One Republic’s Come Home is awesome.
  3. Thursday service.

27/3/15

  1. Pagi makan gado-gado.
  2. Siang makan mie ayam.
  3. Malam makan soto.

28/3/15

  1. Celebrating earth hour with Kendos Runner Community.
  2. Fresh Orange juice after hectic day.
  3. Being member of Kendos Runner.

29/3/15

  1. Nemu karakter Lantang, the violist dan Gandes, the dancer.
  2. Tidur siang sampe malam.
  3. Covering satu lagunya One Republic yg hasilnya hancur minah

30/3/15

  1. Nemu Rue de Babylone.
  2. Awesome movie : The Gunman.
  3. Karaoke

31/3/15

  1. Rain.
  2. 2 biji tahu isi.
  3. Cold beer.